Was reading Min's blog and realised how fast this year has gone. Just as she expressed, it is surreal. Well maybe hers is more.. She went through more. As I think back this year, it is probably the pivotal point in my life, where things could change drastically for the coming year. Let's see:
January
All I can remember is that I smell of meat most days.. working my ass to save as much money as I could. Min had her summer school, and was nearly completing her degree by then.
February
Min's birthday. Uni was restarting again for me, My final year.
March
Uni most days, spending time with Min when I could. Especially when she was daring enough to remove all her 4 wisdom tooth in one go. RESPECT!.. But she couldn't remember a thing after the surgery. I remember this day I got her mang as well.. I was late. When she got around, she was sooo conscious of her looks.. haha I find it funny. Not because of her swollen cheeks but her constantly looking in the mirror.
April
South Island road trip with my min and her mom's friends and grandma. It was one hell of a trip! Drove like mad, good experience and also exciting. The pajero broke down, in the middle of no where, and I remember vividly that Min wrote me a letter, writing to me while I was gone. Silly girl.. but it was so adorable. It was one of those, "just in case something happen" kind of letter. As long as you let me be with you, there is no need for such letters :)
This was also when my darling graduated. Im so proud of her. Im proud and lucky to have this smart, bright and gorgeous babe in my life. I never thanked her enough...
May
Uni for me and she started profs. How I miss her when she was away.. Loved sending her to it and waiting for her to finish so can pick her up.
June
My annual Gawai festival. For those who do not know, I'm an Iban. An endangered indigenous species left in the island of Borneo. I feel lucky to be one and properly educated. Although I take things for granted most of the time. Was seeing less of min as had exams, plus she was busy with profs and things. Had 3 exams in a row. Bweks..
July
Bersatu games again, this would be my last. We retained the cup. Got a few medals. Min got tanned. My my, she look mighty fine. Very sexy and irresistible. The colour was great. I never got to enjoy most of it. Plus I was joking when I said it smell like coconut, didn't realised that she took it seriously. The series of event occurred this month, will be laid to rest and be a moment in time where I was tested, emotionally and mentally. It was a moment of trials and tribulations. I was there for her, no matter what happened. And will always do my best to be there for her, never ceasing. I may have not handled things well, but it was my testament of love and patience I have for my Min, showing that no matter what, nothing was going to stop us.. It is how much she means to me.
August
I was left behind. As min ventured out for her new job. I was actually happy that she left. No, I'm not a cruel boyfriend but I was happy for min as she could live a life by herself and not be stagnant. the change was good. I could see that she was much happier, despite the drastic change in environment and secs that drive her nuts. Plus I would be joining her in a week after she left to take more of her luggage. I was there for a month, studying while I could, and taking care of min while she was away. Helped her settled in, got her things to make life better and felt more at home. Most of all, spent as much time with her as I could as I know time is what we had left.
September
Half of my September was spent with min, and helping her move again to Fukuoka. Settling down there before I had to go in a week. Was originally staying for 3 weeks but as I have missed my connecting flight, I had to re-book and decided to stay a week longer to help min settle in more. We had a huge fight the day I was supposed to leave. Was a bad call I made. I was waiting for her to come back to the station where I have missed her somehow, maybe I was walking around. But at the same time she got home, she didn't had the keys as they were with me. I waited from about 6:45 till about 9pm while she already got home around 7pm. Silly right? When I thought it was nice to wait for her at the station. I cannot imagine the pain and hardship I put her through as she didn't have a phone at the time. She managed to call me without knowing anyone, and seeking help from neighbours. I never had gotten her so mad like this before. She was so angry, as thought she could have killed me. And that was he first time I felt as though I wasn't welcomed anymore, I was told to "fuck off". Words so cold, send shivers down my spine. I felt so bad, that I really wanted to leave. Leave her so that I won't cause her pain anymore. We made up, I still feel bad. I tried to make up for it. I hope I did. Time flies when you want it most. Soon I had to leave Japan.. leave her. I thought maybe this break apart would be a good breathing space for her. We still see each other at home, where I will wait for her on the net.. every night. Not missing a single one, except when she was away.
October
October came and went, had exams at the end. My birthday, where my brother organised something!~ That was sweet :) As much as I didn't want to celebrate it, it helped me feel better as I was missing my min very much. I even bought myself a small cupcake with 3 candles so I can blow it in front of the web cam so Min could see.. wished she was here.
November
exams exams exams.. I hate it when I get my first exam on the second day and the last exam on the last day. And the exams were done in 2 weeks.. I did my best :)
December
The time of the year again. Min got transferred to Tokyo. I finally graduated, although I didn't feel as though it was anything special. I honestly felt I could have done better, was better and never pushed myself to the limits like I used to. Will make the best out of it. I was even offered to do masters or phd in information systems. Can I handle it? I think it may have to wait.. I have kept min a promise and I don't want her to wait anymore, i will find a good job. work my way up, and eventually have that house we been wanting and start that cafe of ours. Will work hard to make our dreams come true, I promise, if you are willing to stand by me, by my side as we start our journey together in life. A promise I vow to keep.
Time flies when we least expect it. Thats how I spent my year, thanking for every moment that was given to me, good or bad. Made me who I am today. I will change for the better. abolish all these negativeness from me and vow myself to be that positive person I see myself is. I learn a lot through the year and previous years. Experiences has only shaped my character. I have only learned of how imperfect I am..
My next post will be of my new years resolutions and views I see in life, views I have established. Seeing where I stand and where I am going.. stay tuned.. :D
January
All I can remember is that I smell of meat most days.. working my ass to save as much money as I could. Min had her summer school, and was nearly completing her degree by then.
February
Min's birthday. Uni was restarting again for me, My final year.
March
Uni most days, spending time with Min when I could. Especially when she was daring enough to remove all her 4 wisdom tooth in one go. RESPECT!.. But she couldn't remember a thing after the surgery. I remember this day I got her mang as well.. I was late. When she got around, she was sooo conscious of her looks.. haha I find it funny. Not because of her swollen cheeks but her constantly looking in the mirror.
April
South Island road trip with my min and her mom's friends and grandma. It was one hell of a trip! Drove like mad, good experience and also exciting. The pajero broke down, in the middle of no where, and I remember vividly that Min wrote me a letter, writing to me while I was gone. Silly girl.. but it was so adorable. It was one of those, "just in case something happen" kind of letter. As long as you let me be with you, there is no need for such letters :)
This was also when my darling graduated. Im so proud of her. Im proud and lucky to have this smart, bright and gorgeous babe in my life. I never thanked her enough...
May
Uni for me and she started profs. How I miss her when she was away.. Loved sending her to it and waiting for her to finish so can pick her up.
June
My annual Gawai festival. For those who do not know, I'm an Iban. An endangered indigenous species left in the island of Borneo. I feel lucky to be one and properly educated. Although I take things for granted most of the time. Was seeing less of min as had exams, plus she was busy with profs and things. Had 3 exams in a row. Bweks..
July
Bersatu games again, this would be my last. We retained the cup. Got a few medals. Min got tanned. My my, she look mighty fine. Very sexy and irresistible. The colour was great. I never got to enjoy most of it. Plus I was joking when I said it smell like coconut, didn't realised that she took it seriously. The series of event occurred this month, will be laid to rest and be a moment in time where I was tested, emotionally and mentally. It was a moment of trials and tribulations. I was there for her, no matter what happened. And will always do my best to be there for her, never ceasing. I may have not handled things well, but it was my testament of love and patience I have for my Min, showing that no matter what, nothing was going to stop us.. It is how much she means to me.
August
I was left behind. As min ventured out for her new job. I was actually happy that she left. No, I'm not a cruel boyfriend but I was happy for min as she could live a life by herself and not be stagnant. the change was good. I could see that she was much happier, despite the drastic change in environment and secs that drive her nuts. Plus I would be joining her in a week after she left to take more of her luggage. I was there for a month, studying while I could, and taking care of min while she was away. Helped her settled in, got her things to make life better and felt more at home. Most of all, spent as much time with her as I could as I know time is what we had left.
September
Half of my September was spent with min, and helping her move again to Fukuoka. Settling down there before I had to go in a week. Was originally staying for 3 weeks but as I have missed my connecting flight, I had to re-book and decided to stay a week longer to help min settle in more. We had a huge fight the day I was supposed to leave. Was a bad call I made. I was waiting for her to come back to the station where I have missed her somehow, maybe I was walking around. But at the same time she got home, she didn't had the keys as they were with me. I waited from about 6:45 till about 9pm while she already got home around 7pm. Silly right? When I thought it was nice to wait for her at the station. I cannot imagine the pain and hardship I put her through as she didn't have a phone at the time. She managed to call me without knowing anyone, and seeking help from neighbours. I never had gotten her so mad like this before. She was so angry, as thought she could have killed me. And that was he first time I felt as though I wasn't welcomed anymore, I was told to "fuck off". Words so cold, send shivers down my spine. I felt so bad, that I really wanted to leave. Leave her so that I won't cause her pain anymore. We made up, I still feel bad. I tried to make up for it. I hope I did. Time flies when you want it most. Soon I had to leave Japan.. leave her. I thought maybe this break apart would be a good breathing space for her. We still see each other at home, where I will wait for her on the net.. every night. Not missing a single one, except when she was away.
October
October came and went, had exams at the end. My birthday, where my brother organised something!~ That was sweet :) As much as I didn't want to celebrate it, it helped me feel better as I was missing my min very much. I even bought myself a small cupcake with 3 candles so I can blow it in front of the web cam so Min could see.. wished she was here.
November
exams exams exams.. I hate it when I get my first exam on the second day and the last exam on the last day. And the exams were done in 2 weeks.. I did my best :)
December
The time of the year again. Min got transferred to Tokyo. I finally graduated, although I didn't feel as though it was anything special. I honestly felt I could have done better, was better and never pushed myself to the limits like I used to. Will make the best out of it. I was even offered to do masters or phd in information systems. Can I handle it? I think it may have to wait.. I have kept min a promise and I don't want her to wait anymore, i will find a good job. work my way up, and eventually have that house we been wanting and start that cafe of ours. Will work hard to make our dreams come true, I promise, if you are willing to stand by me, by my side as we start our journey together in life. A promise I vow to keep.
Time flies when we least expect it. Thats how I spent my year, thanking for every moment that was given to me, good or bad. Made me who I am today. I will change for the better. abolish all these negativeness from me and vow myself to be that positive person I see myself is. I learn a lot through the year and previous years. Experiences has only shaped my character. I have only learned of how imperfect I am..
My next post will be of my new years resolutions and views I see in life, views I have established. Seeing where I stand and where I am going.. stay tuned.. :D
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